dream to go 7 - I regret to say

You’ve heard the interview, “I have no regrets” they say, “in fact, if I could do it all again I wouldn’t change a single thing”.

What?… hello!… you honestly have no regrets?!

I’ve got loads of regrets. If I could do it all again, I’d change tons. There are times when I’d love to “do it again” because I messed up really badly, and people I care about were hurt.

This is the life I live, and maybe the life you live too?

-My kids will need therapy one day because alongside being a brilliant dad, I’m also screwing them up.

-My relationships are a mixture of my caring trustworthiness and selfish insensitivity.

-My ‘work’ blends of visionary enthusiasm and apathetic mediocrity.

-My dreams weave together noble aspirations and egotistical ambition.

I’m a messy person inside and out, muddling my way through a messy life in a messy world.

Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I’m following Jesus.

Because I need forgiving a lot.

I need his offer of a fresh start often.

I need to hear him say…

-Get up, your sins are forgiven
-Neither do I condemn you
-I have come to make all things new
-It’s the sick, not the healthy who need a doctor
-Father forgive them, they don’t realise what they’re doing

I’m banking on him to transform the mess in me and you and our world, like he said he would. And in my better moments I realise that he has started doing that already.

That even… no especially in the mess he’s very near.
It was his first sermon…

Repent and believe, for the Kingdom of God is near